“I’ll start tomorrow.” We’ve all uttered those words. I do! I did! I probably will. Here’s the dirty little secret we NEVER tell ourselves; tomorrow never comes. It keeps getting pushed back and back and back…etc.
I spent my entire life with “tomorrows.” I would start my diet on New Year’s Day. I would start working out after the semester was over. I eat healthier when at lunchtime when I finished this next big project. Pretty soon my calendar was full of dates with myself that I kept pushing back.
I wasn’t making myself a priority. I didn’t realize that health wasn’t something to schedule for the future, but something to act upon right now. I still remember that first day on my journey. There was still a bag of chips in the house. I thought, “Oh I’ll snack on them every now and then. I’ll follow the serving size…blah.” About the third trip to refill the bowl I looked at my hands, covered in chip grease. That old nagging though whispered, “Tomorrow.”
There in my kitchen with a bag of BBQ Chips to witness I came to a crossroads. Would I continue to deny myself the date with healthy living or would I seize today? Obviously, I seized today. I tossed the entire bag in the trash. I avoided the Miranda Hobbs’ moment and DID NOT pull said bag out of the garbage and reconsume. I scooped out the trash and took it out.
Tomorrow would never come, but today was here. If I wanted a string of todays I had to stop promising myself a tomorrow and begin taking today. By taking today I made myself a priority. I told myself that I was important enough to make time for and to care for. Each day I have to remember this. Each morning when I start my day with a workout, take a 15 minute break to walk outside, do yoga during a conference call (my coworkers are laughing as they read this), or choose a healthier lunch I am giving myself today. It’s a struggle, but it also allows me a life without day planners with pushed back appointments.
I love the Miranda reference, I've totally done that.... no, not eaten out of the garbage, but just tossed stuff so I wouldn't eat it. Ps? I love the thought of you doing yoga at work. You're awesome.
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