On any journey there is the inevitable bump in the road. It’s a bump. We may trip. We may fall. We may even skin our knee. It’s momentary. It’s not a sink hold sucking us down into the depths. There is no need to look at a bump as the end. However, we often do.
There are moments that this journey just seems so hard. There are the long plateau periods where change does not seem to take hold. There are the days that I gaze into the mirror and still see myself as 83lbs heavier, my puffy cheeks droop and chins expand as I smile. “Is that me?” I gasp. There are those days when my inner Fat Guy throws a tantrum that rivals Farucka Salt. “I want a cookie! I want a cookie now!” I can’t help but to indulge its childish temper in hopes of quieting it for a few more days. There are days that the sweat pours down, stinging my eyes, and my muscles ache as I work out and I can’t help but to collapse on the floor cursing Jillian Michaels and swearing I am done!
Those moments will come. Guess what? They’ll go away. They will come back again. They will go away. There become intervals of bumps on the road of this journey. We have to face these bumps. This road is not smooth. Road crews have not been dispensed by the Government of Healthyville to fill pot holes. Much like the jagged roads of Buffalo, NY (where I call home) this journey will be rough, so buckle up.
“It’s going to be a bumpy ride,” Bette Davis said in All about Eve. Well, I am echoing her sentiments on this journey. Although, my inner Fat Guy would much prefer to cease the journey. It’s easier to let the bumps stop us, to stop and make camp at the bumps. Let’s start a new settlement at the bump of “I ate a sleeve of Oreos.” The settlement will be easily built, but will it be fruitful? Will it last? No. Stopping on this journey should not be an option. We will be constant travelers working towards the dream of being healthy; never reaching our destination but having quite an enriching journey. The journey to health never ends.
So, when we reach those bumps on the road it is time to regroup. Learn from the bumps. How can we avoid them in the future? How can we avoid causing so much damage to ourselves the next time? Whatever we do, don’t let the bumps stop us. Our journey is far too important.
You are a true inspiration young lady! I had my own battle many years ago (jeez, I sound old!) with my weight: I lost 80 lbs and I have kept it off for over 20 years (still sounding old). It's so worth it for the quality of life improvement..now, if I could get off the CRACK..one thing (and day) at a time.
ReplyDeleteCrack is very hard. I am debating on starting a blog on fighting my crack addiction lol! J/k! Thanks Dana! You rock for making the life change and staying true and healthy!
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